I don't have any regret or any jealousness or any pain that I couldn't do well,
I am actually in a place where there are very less people of my kind,
I should not be here,
I don't belong to here, I belong to some good place like IITs etc, but what can I do, my bad luck is so strong I can't do any thing write, what ever I am doing turns out to be a disaster,
I don't hate anyone, I cannot hate any one, but the problem is that I am different & they are totally different, so what can I do?
there is so much bad luck in my life ,I can't express in words, every day is another mistake, I don't know why it is happening only to me, I don't understand the cause, but there is no reason to go on,... still I am pushing it,, what can I do , there is no better days I can see, there are many failure I can see that too unexplainable by thoughts, or words, it is something some one has to feel... it is not okay that I am not able to pass even after knowing more than anybody else, sometimes my teachers also don't have that much resource, but I am always loosing, what is the solution to it?
unexplainable misery... just misery...
Nobody can understand me, not my friends, not my parents, not my teachers, I am only able to understand it, rather it is me who knows what may be the circumstances I am facing then I am making myself unknown to this situation, I am trying to forget everything, but nothing works,,, its indispensable pain, lifelong pain I am facing... there is no cure for it... just face it head on & keep on facing it...
I am actually in a place where there are very less people of my kind,
I should not be here,
I don't belong to here, I belong to some good place like IITs etc, but what can I do, my bad luck is so strong I can't do any thing write, what ever I am doing turns out to be a disaster,
I don't hate anyone, I cannot hate any one, but the problem is that I am different & they are totally different, so what can I do?
there is so much bad luck in my life ,I can't express in words, every day is another mistake, I don't know why it is happening only to me, I don't understand the cause, but there is no reason to go on,... still I am pushing it,, what can I do , there is no better days I can see, there are many failure I can see that too unexplainable by thoughts, or words, it is something some one has to feel... it is not okay that I am not able to pass even after knowing more than anybody else, sometimes my teachers also don't have that much resource, but I am always loosing, what is the solution to it?
unexplainable misery... just misery...
Nobody can understand me, not my friends, not my parents, not my teachers, I am only able to understand it, rather it is me who knows what may be the circumstances I am facing then I am making myself unknown to this situation, I am trying to forget everything, but nothing works,,, its indispensable pain, lifelong pain I am facing... there is no cure for it... just face it head on & keep on facing it...
sometimes I think I am going correct but then it goes wrong, whatever I may be doing is just a blunder, nothing works right, my friends are tring to make my confidence level high enough so that I can meet these conditions but how or why I don't understand,, there is probably only one person thinking of me, & I don't want to talk to him like a defeated guy, its total miserable,
ReplyDeleteI have no reason to be angry, I am okay with all my emotions, but I still have nothing absolute nothing in my mind...
I want to get something, thats the only thing I want yar...
people take me as if I am in great tension, why the hell I am not in so much tension, I just want to do something I am not able to do...
stress level is high but I am not tensed , as if nothing id=s there in life...
carring on with such a passion is big nuisance..
it is the only way I can see it...